Is there anybody out there?

Untouched for years, my first brainchild, is there anybody out there?

What the fuck!

The drama that was played through the last night, which is not under control even after almost 24 hours of its commencement, was nothing less than the most dreaded nightmare of us Mumbaikars. For the facts, it was something unprecedented in independent India, something that would have easily gone in as a tall story if talked about earlier, and rightly so, because the way the drama unfolded in was simply unbelievable.

Around 20 - 25 men dock a ship at Sassoon dock, in the heart of Mumbai, with ammunition that outplayed the imagination of our top cops. They get inside what probably is one of the most known identities of Mumbai, The Taj, and later go on to destroy it; they go inside the Oberoi, which has been the prime face of Mumbai's extravagance over the years; and they also get inside the Cama hospital where patients were heartrendingly held hostages as in the formerly mentioned places. Moreover, some gunmen hijack police vans, and fire randomly at the common Mumbaikar. The men also cause a Taxi explosion at Vile Parle, leading to beliefs that the attack was going to spread over the suburbs too.

101 reportedly dead, and over 300 injured. We lose 3 top cops.

I managed to get back home safely from Malad which was thankfully an unaffected place, before I got hooked to the television that spoke of the grand scale attack that has shaken Mumbai at the roots.

What the hell! Isn't it utterly shameful that these men come right into the heart of Mumbai, and execute such a devastating plan? Can our intelligence be called even moderately intelligent if it wasn't aware of this efficacious plan? Is Mumbai police just good enough to harass middle class and lower - middle class people? Did they have no information network or disaster management scheme at all? And how the fuck could people dock ship loaded with heavy ammunition at the sea coast of Mumbai? Does our coastal security exist? Are there really so many loopholes in the security system the great city of Mumbai?

Is it an epitome of the incapability of our government to take a stand against the relentlessly repetitive terrorism? These and many other questions have haunted me since 9.40 pm, last night. I have perhaps missed many things that I would have written in a better state of mind. This is not an article. I don't care a shit for language or quality at the moment. It's time to get back at these people big time. Find them from their roots (which quite obviously lie to the north - west of India), and kill them! It's high time Manmohan did a Bush. It would surely require planning and patience but start the eradication process right away. The city of Mumbai that has given us so much over time cries for help. It's time to pay her back.

Anomaly

I’m holding on to the last strands of lucidity that I think I possess.
The sleep that I didn’t sleep is all pervasive.
She engulfs me like a thick mist.
She beckons me like a sweet temptress.
But I’m afraid it is not to be.
She will not let me enjoy her. Exploit her.
She would rather keep me waiting, so I don’t stop wanting her.
She delights in my agony, reminding me of Him.

He, the man of my dreams.
A face I can put a name to but not much else,
who has made me less than myself.
He says You’re my best friend.
He says I’m giving up on you.
He says You slut!
He puts himself first.
He lacks the courage to be vulnerable.
He is not faithful.

This elusive duo has shattered my existence.
Sleep.
Him.
Sleep.
Him.
I resent both.
I desire both.
I am scarred.
Living, but not alive.
My gut says this morbid state of being will not subside.

I am going out today, all dolled up.
The kohl in my eyes hides the circles around them.
Caused by the Two.
My archenemies.
Today I will rise
Above the power they hold over me.
I will defeat them.
Conquer Her and set Him free.