On an ordinary afternoon, I was whiling away my time by getting involved in some or the other useless activities as usual. The effusive speakers of my laptop were playing some music perfunctorily. The playlist went on and so did my waifish activities and haphazard thoughts. Media player was on the ‘shuffle’ mode and the track changed to the legendry Nirvana song, ‘Smells like teen spirit’. One of my all time favourites, ‘Smells Like Teen Spirit’ is a song that I have heard on infinite loops at some point in time. I have been smelling this teen spirit for quite a while now. There was nothing new for me in the song since I even know the entire lyrics by heart. Yet, the song prompted a couple of interesting thoughts in my mind.
Me, a soon – to - be 20 boy, is on the verge of getting out of my teens. The very thought itself has an antagonistic effect on me. Teens, a period of life that has a foundational effect on one’s personality, is certainly a time that’s dynamic in the true sense of the word. Not that I have lived 2-3 lives already and am talking like ‘been there - done that’; but I believe that 13 – 19 are the years in life that make a person undergo the most physical and mental changes in his life. The psychological growth of a person, his principles and philosophies, way of thinking is set and defined in these 6-7 years. When I recall myself at the age of 13, there’s hardly anything that I can see which is common in ‘me today’ and ‘me then’, except for probably a body, which, too, has undergone several physical changes over these years.
Today, I am an adult. I’m supposed to be responsible and mature. I’m not allowed to behave at my will every time and everywhere. I have to take my decisions on my own and face the problems on my own, too. There are many things that are trying to pull me down and trying to impede my way to achieve what I call, ‘success’. I have suddenly started looking at myself in a different manner. ‘Am I just another confused soul, lost in the huge crowd?’, ‘How can I make a difference?’, ‘Is it really necessary for one to make a difference?’, ‘What exactly is ‘success’?’, ‘Do I have to be successful?’, ‘Should I expect my dreams to realize someday or dreams are just to be seen, never hoping them to be realized?’, ‘Should even dreams have limitations like all the other things in life or the idea of ‘free dreaming’ holds some truth in it?’ These and many other conundrums have begun to occupy my mind, as a youngster just leaving his teens behind.
The new world that is soon going to be open for me (or perhaps, has already opened for me) will be a different one, a completely different one than the one I have lived my teens in. This difference is so huge that I would need the entire magazine space to describe it (oh sorry! that’s unlimited for me). Anyway, exemplifying my point now, the title of the song that I spoke about in the beginning of the article will always taunt me that it’s no more ‘mine’. I will be doing no better than just thinking about those magical college days when life seemed at its dramatic best. Those Juhu Mocha days and starry nights on the empty beaches, the late – night drives, those speedy bike rides, the sandwiches eaten in the midnight, the teen age crushes, the optimistic girl chases, the jam sessions, some beautiful teen age moments spent with friends…oh my ghost (I’m an atheist)! I just got nostalgic. I will miss them all, man! I will surely miss them all.
“Life often plays black,” I once told myself.
Looking at the brighter side of it, I will always have the memories of my teen age, along with me, in my treasure box. I will always recall my teens with a smile on my face, whenever I see someone else going through his and enjoying life as I once did; and last but not the least, the foundation that’s laid by my teens is yet to get converted into something big, something outrageous! And that’s probably the best way I can pay a tribute to those golden years in.
All said and done, now again, I smell something. This smell is a new one though; as of now, not as pleasant as the previous one. I’m not yet habitual to it. After all, it’s a new smell - the ‘post-teen’ spirit.
- Mihir Chitre
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8 comments:
i felt some parts were not really needed.and spoilt the fun in reading the article.
but,the thoughts are good and comes close to what every teenager feels and thinks!!
i cant believe you write this well! great work man, expressions are fantastic, vocab is excellent.. u have the makings of a fantastic writer... maybe u have found ur calling?
Good work!
this mag is a great idea..
kudos to the entire team... some articles are great piece of literature.. keep it up, expecting more
It's interesting but suffers from a few shortcomings. It goes into a more general category - the need to reach out to a crowd/the mass looks emphatic.
I relate to it, oh yes! but it's not stimulating enough to generate a new perspective or take.
A great topic for debate nonetheless :)
keep writing Mihir.if you want to involve yourself with some really out-of-the-box writers(apart from the ones who are here already) join the Caferati on ryze.com.it's a great outlet.
i liked your article.may be coz i could relate to idea of it.keep up the good work.
can completely relate to this feeling .. dude u write realy wel.. kudos to u
Though the deliberate humour at places ('Oh my ghost') was unnecessary..the article as a whole is very well written..I am amazed at myself for not liking it back then...
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